6 week trial is up!

So, Chris and I did the 6 week trial at Friends First Church- actually it ended up being more like 8 weeks or so cause Chris was away for weeks in the middle and other stuff happened!  Has the 6 weeks changed my view of church?  I don't think so!  But what it probably has done is remeinded me of the many reasons I stopped going in the first place- and it reminded me that not all those reasons were because of the'church' itself.  Some of them were actually cause of me, (shock, horror!  I am not perfect!)

Being in church made me realise how much I desire an intimate relationship with Jesus and how I just ain't there at the moment.  Not that i ond't love HIM, I do it's just taht that clioseness is not there.  And not going to church, well that allows me to hide from the lack of intimacy I have, I can just potter along with Jesus at the rate I want, but being in church challenegs me- sometimes a bit to hard actually!  

So my desision is to keep going to Friends First, at least for a while, try and figure some more life stuff out and get my head around some of the issues I had with church.  Chris has also settled on a similar thing, I think.  Although it's hard to know where this path will lead us as the church is far to far away to be a long term community for us.  But God knows, so we will trust in Him.